Sunday, October 23, 2011

Thank You, God...Thank You, Friends

We're all living in our own little world, aren't we?
We've all got our own separate problems and our own separate secrets. We think that nobody
needs to know because nobody cares or nobody understands. But, is that really true?
In my own opinion, I don't think so. I think that our problems and our struggles are the things
that unify us the most.

When I started this blog (and still on occassion) I struggle with some thoughts that seem
to taunt me and run through my mind over...and over... and over again.

"Why do I need to take my medication everyday in order feel good?
 Why can't I just be happy on my own?
Why can't I be happy like everybody else?"

The last one especially bothers me. When I'm having "one of those days" I look around me and it seems like everyone, strangers and friends, are effortlessly happy. They seem so free. I, on the other hand, am praying that I don't run into anybody I know when I'm in the store because right now, the hardest thing in the world is to muster up a smile and friendly tone of voice. Sometimes it can be so hard for me to realize that I'm not the only one in the world with problems. Selfish, I know, but it's true. However, after I put a link to my blog on my facebook page, so many people have opened up to me and told me that they struggle with similar problems and that they're always there for me if I need to talk.
Thank You, God! Thank You, Friends!

I am so grateful for the stories that I have heard. Not only because these people have
offered a sympathetic ear, but their stories puts things into perspective for me. When some
people shared their stories, I was completely shocked. People I've known for my whole life,
or close to my whole life, have "shared their secrets" with me and I now understand certain things about them that I didn't before. But more importantly, I have a whole new understanding of what it means to be humbled. Those who have opened their hearts to me and shared their secrets, never hesitated to tell me how wonderful I am. What a blessing to have such thoughtful people in my life. Some of these people I haven't talked to that much, but they still offered their help and kind words despite the fact that they have their own problems to worry about.
"To see yourself through the eyes of a friend is to know how special you really are."

Right now I am so grateful. I am grateful for MY problems. I have heard many things that break my heart and I am so thankful that I have not had to go through the things that some of my friends and family have. I am grateful that I now realize that God needs me to love His children unconditionally, without judgment, because sometimes they can't feel His presence.

I'm grateful for my life experiences, and friends that keep me grounded and make me realize that I'm wonderful and that My Life Is Good.

1 comment:

  1. Honey, you are not alone. You feel so deeply that sometimes it's hard to dig down inside and see that others around you suffer from the same things you do. Including me.
    For some reason I and many others hide the reality of our own problems...I look at your selfless and prayerful way of dealing with your problems and I find inspiration in your words.
    You are given to this world for a reason. I thank God for you always.
    Please remember that you are not alone...but you alone can be you. You are special and an inspiration brought here by a loving God.

    Thank you for sharing your words.
    I love you