I should have been learning about all the helpful tools that are available to me on Microsoft Publisher, but I wasn't. I should have been listening to my professor explain how this program can help me in my future classroom, but I wasn't. To put it simply, I should have actually been listening during his instruction, but I wasn't. Instead I had my nose buried in this little quote book called, "Live Happy." Shame on me, I know. But, for once I don't feel so bad about letting my mind wander into the quiet caverns of my brain because I think some good might have actually come from it.
This little pink and green quote book has been my newest obsession since I bought it yesterday and I think I've read it cover-to-cover about five times already. But, today one particular quote has been weighing on my heart. About half way through the book on a plain page with only some simple pale pink swirling patters near the bottom, reads this quote:
“ Be where you are. Otherwise, you will miss your life. ” -Buddha
It sounds so simple, so why is it so difficult? Maybe it's because we don't really understands what it means to live. To live could simply be going through our everyday routines. Wake up, go to work or school (in my case, both), go home, go to bed, do it all again tomorrow. But living fully is something completely different and completely sacramental. If we are not active participants in our lives- mind, body, soul- how can we claim to have lived even one day? In my own life I find that I'm always trying to race time; always trying to stay one step ahead of schedule. In doing so, I'm never fully present in the moment at hand. By focusing on what my next class is, what activities I'm going to plan for the kids at Daycare, or what homework I need to get done tonight, I'm not engaged in the moment. I'm not connecting with the people I am with by noticing their selfless acts of kindness or learning about their unique personalities. I'm not making the most of the gifts that I've been given; gifts as simple as the fact that I'm not paralyzed and I have the ability to, and should, take notes during class! I'm even missing out on how to use Microsoft Publisher, which is a shame because it turns out that I need it for an upcoming assignment.
Ok God, point taken. Man, you really DO have a sense of humor...
Note to self: Pay attention in class. Take notes. Live in the moment (even if it's difficult.)
Like my therapist keeps telling me, I am going to try to work on living my life one moment at a time because I think once I start to fully participate- mind, body, and soul- in each moment, I will be much more able to cope with problems that may arise in only that moment. When another moment comes along, I'll worry about that when I get to it. Tonight, I'm counting my blessings and thanking God for each moment He's given me. Tonight, I'm truly living.